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"Guilt Has Never Once Moved Me Toward God. It Only Ever Moved Me Further Away."
I'm a mom of three, I work full time, and there was a stretch where I hadn't really prayed in weeks. Feeling bad about it turned out to be the thing keeping me from Him — and I didn't see that until I stopped trying to fix it with discipline.
Rachel Bennett
mother of three · 7 min read
I don't usually share something this personal.
I know how that sounds coming from a Christian woman.
Give me four minutes and I'll show you exactly how I got there, because I'm fairly sure I'm not the only one who has.
It starts with the moment I stopped being able to ignore it.
It was a Tuesday night. Everyone was finally in bed. The dishwasher was running. I sat down on the edge of my bed, and out of nowhere this thought showed up:
When was the last time I actually prayed? Not "God help me find my keys." Actually prayed.
I couldn't remember.
Not that day.
Not that week.
I genuinely could not remember.
And I want to be clear about something, because this is the part that hurt the most:
I love God.
I have loved Him my whole life.
I'm not someone who walked away, or got angry at Him, or stopped believing.
Nothing dramatic happened.
I just... ran out of room.
Jan 2025 | Me, sitting outside my church, feeling horrible knowing I was about to drive away again.
The Day Never Actually Ends
If you're a Christian mom, I don't have to explain this to you. But I'll say it out loud anyway, because for a long time I thought I was the only one who was this bad at it.
The alarm goes off. You pack lunches. You answer a work message before you've had water. You drive one kid to school and one to daycare. You work. You answer more messages. You pick them up. Somebody needs a poster board by tomorrow. You make dinner. You clean up dinner. You do bath and bedtime and the negotiation that comes after bedtime. You fold something. You answer one more email.
And then you look up and it's 10:40 at night and the day is gone.
You spent every single hour of it taking care of other people. You were kind, you were patient — mostly — you were present for everyone who needed you.
And you had almost no time with God at all.
Then Sunday comes and you're too tired, or someone's sick, or there's a game, and you skip church again. And you feel it. That small, heavy, specific feeling of I'm slipping away from Him and I don't even know when it started.
It Turns Out Almost Nobody Is Actually Keeping Up
The first thing that actually helped me wasn't a product. It was finding out I wasn't broken.
A recent survey found that 77% of Christians wish they had more time to spend with God.
Not 20%. Not half.
More than three out of four.
And many of them said exactly what I would have said: that they feel like they're slowly drifting away from Him.
Seventy-seven percent of us are quietly carrying the same guilt, and most of us think we're the only one.
We live in a world that is built to take every spare second we have.
Our phones never stop.
Our calendars are always full. Somebody always needs something.
That isn't a character flaw.
That's the environment.
The Two Years I Spent Fixing the Wrong Problem
For almost two years, my entire strategy was to feel bad about it.
I told myself I'd get up earlier. I downloaded the app. I bought the devotional with the pretty cover that is still, today, on my nightstand with a bookmark on page 11.
And somewhere in that second year, the sentence at the top of this page stopped being an idea I'd read somewhere and became the actual, specific reason I was stuck:
Guilt has never once moved me toward God. It has only ever moved me away from Him.
Because when you already feel like you've failed at something, the last thing on earth you want to do is walk back into the room where you failed. So you avoid it. You put it off one more day. And the distance you were already feeling gets a little bit wider.
I want to be careful here, because I know the difference matters. Conviction and guilt are not the same thing. Conviction is God drawing you back toward Him — that's His, and it's kind, even when it stings. Guilt was me standing outside the door keeping score of how many days I'd been gone. One of those was from Him. The other one I built myself, and then I lived in it.
What I actually needed wasn't more discipline, or more guilt, or a schedule I was never going to keep.
I needed something that lived inside the day I already had.
What My Bible Study Leader Was Wearing
About two months ago, I noticed a necklace on the woman who leads my Bible study.
I complimented it, the way you do. And she said, "Do you want to know what's actually inside it?"
Then she told me that the small stone in the center of her pendant has the entire King James Bible physically engraved onto it. Not a verse. Not a symbol. All 66 books. All 1,189 chapters. All 3.1 million letters of God's Word — engraved onto a chip smaller than a grain of rice.
I said what you're probably thinking right now, which is: there is no way that's real.
So I Went Home and Looked Into It
I'm not going to pretend I ordered it that night out of pure faith. I went home and I dug.
Here's what I found. The company is called TANAOR. They work with nanotechnology scientists, and the process physically engraves the complete KJV text onto a nano slate that then gets set into the jewelry.
Every finished piece is inspected under a microscope and comes with an official certificate of authenticity — signed by nanoscience expert Raju Wallia and Pastor Philip C. Morris Jr. — confirming the entire Bible really is inside the piece you're holding.
That mattered to me more than anything else on the website. Because I didn't want to wear something that symbolized the Bible.
I have plenty of things that symbolize the Bible.
I wanted the actual Word.
Then I Found Something I Wasn't Expecting
While I was reading, I went back to a verse I've heard my whole life and always treated as a metaphor:
"You shall bind them as a sign on your hand, and they shall be as frontlets between your eyes."
— Deuteronomy 6:8, King James Version
Bind them. On your hand. Not "think about them."
Not "remember them when you have a free hour."
God told His people to keep His Word physically on their bodies — three thousand years before anyone had the technology to actually do it with all of it.
And then I found the modern side of it. Dr. Harold Koenig at Duke University is one of the most cited researchers in the world on faith and the human body. Across a review of more than 700 studies, he found that people who actively carry their faith with them — not only believe it privately, but keep a physical, tangible connection to it close to their body — show measurably lower anxiety, lower reported depression, and more capacity to stay steady under stress.
I'm not a scientist. But I read that and thought: so the reason this works isn't magic. It's that a reminder you can physically touch reaches you in the middle of the day, when a reminder you can only think about never does.
The First Week Was Not What I Expected
I ordered it. It came in a box that felt like a gift even though I'd bought it for myself.
And here's the honest report from week one, because I don't think dramatic stories help anybody:
Nothing mystical happened. I did not become a better Christian in seven days.
What happened was smaller and, to me, much better. My hand started going to it on its own.
7:40 a.m., when I'm already behind and someone can't find a shoe — my hand goes to it.
The email I have to reread three times because my chest gets tight — my hand goes to it.
5:15 p.m., when everyone is hungry and loud at the same time — my hand goes to it.
In the school pickup line, in total silence, for no reason at all — my hand goes to it.
And every single time, the same sentence shows up in my head:
His Word is right here. I am not carrying this day by myself.
That's it. That's the whole thing. It doesn't fix the day. It interrupts the day, for about four seconds, and hands the day back to God.
After a few weeks I noticed something I hadn't planned on. I was thinking about Him more. Talking to Him more — in the car, at the sink, mid-sentence. Not because I'd finally built a better morning routine, but because I'd been reminded thirty times a day instead of zero.
For the first time in years, I felt close to Him inside my actual life — not in the imaginary quieter life I keep promising myself I'll have someday.
Let Me Say the Obvious Thing Out Loud
It did not replace my Bible.
It did not replace prayer.
It is not a shortcut and it is not a substitute.
If anything, it did the opposite. Wearing the whole Bible around my neck all day made me want to actually open the one on my nightstand. I do now. Not every day. More than before.
It simply became the reminder I didn't know I was missing.
Then My Kids Started Asking
I didn't see this part coming at all.
My middle one noticed it first.
So I told her. That the whole Bible — every word of it — is inside that tiny stone. She did not believe me either. Which turned into the longest conversation about God the two of us have ever had, standing at the kitchen counter on a random Thursday.
That has now happened more times than I can count. With my kids. With a mom in the pickup line. With a woman at church who complimented it and then went completely quiet when I told her what was inside.
It starts as a compliment about jewelry. It turns into a conversation about God. Every time.
I Am Very Much Not the Only One
More than 112,000 Christians now wear TANAOR necklaces, bracelets, rings, and earrings every single day, and the brand has more than 5,000 five-star reviews.
When I went and read them, the thing that struck me was how ordinary and specific they are. Nobody's describing a miracle. They're all describing the same four-second moment I described above:
"When I have those nervous moments that we all have in life, I rub it — just reminding myself that God's always with me."
— JoAnne, verified buyer
"It reminds me to be still and know that He's God. It reminds me to relax. It reminds me to find peace. In the chaotic world we live in, that's what it does."
— Renee, verified buyer
"I've got three teenage girls. Everything in my life changes constantly. God's Word is the one thing that's constant — it's permanent. Having that reminder next to me the whole time is everything."
— Melaney, verified buyer
"I'm still growing in my faith. I always say I'm a baby Christian. Sometimes the place to start is just having the Word close to you — it brings calm to such a chaotic world."
— Shankari, verified buyer
"I never thought a piece of jewelry could bring me so much comfort, but it really does. It was worth every penny."
— verified buyer
What Almost Stopped Me From Ordering
I'll be honest about this part because I think a lot of women reading this are exactly where I was.
It sat in my cart for weeks. Not because I doubted it. Because every time I got close to checking out, something else needed the money. The car. A field trip. A bill I forgot about. There is always one more thing.
Here's what finally moved me, and I'm not going to dress it up:
Some of the designs are under $200, and right now there's up to 40% off. I've spent more than that on things this year that I could not name today if you asked me. This is solid 14K or 18K gold or 925 sterling silver — handcrafted by a family that has been in fine jewelry since 1947. It comes with a lifetime warranty.
Which means I'm not buying a thing for this season. I'm buying something my daughter will wear one day, with the whole Word of God still inside it.
And if I'm wrong about all of it, there's a 30-day, 100% money-back guarantee, free shipping, and free exchanges. I could send it back and be out nothing.
That was the math that got me. It wasn't an expense I had to justify. It was the one purchase this year with a floor under it.
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If Someone Came to Mind While You Were Reading This
A lot of women get to this point in the story and they're thinking about themselves. Some are thinking about someone else — a daughter who's drifted, a mom who's going through something, a friend who's running on empty in exactly the same way.
It works the same way as a gift, with the same certificate and the same guarantee. My only warning is that people cry when they open it, so plan accordingly.
Where I Got Mine
I wear the Sacred Cross Necklace. I picked it because the pendant sits right where my hand naturally goes, and because it looks like something I'd wear even if there were nothing inside it.
The pieces I'd look at first if you're deciding:
Sacred Cross Necklace — the classic. What I wear.
Infinity Necklace — the most popular design they make. Subtle enough for work, not obviously "religious jewelry" if you'd rather it not be.
Tree of Life Necklace — the one I see most often on other women at Bible study.
Serenity Bracelet — if you'd rather reach for your wrist than your neck, or if you already wear a cross you don't want to take off.
Because every piece is engraved and finished by hand, they can't mass-produce them. Batches are limited, and since TANAOR was featured on TV the most popular designs have been selling out faster than usual. The 40% off is on while stock lasts.
CHECK AVAILABILITY
Click the link above to see if TANAOR is still offering up to 40% discount and free shipping
"I Feel Closer To Christ"
The complete KJV Bible, all 66 books, physically engraved inside a tiny Nano Bible chip, created to help Christians carry His Word close to the heart.
